Life has thrown me a curve ball, as usual.
I am going to try to start to write on this blog to help me process all that has happened to me and hopefully help me find my strength to keep my chin up through life. I will start with saying what has been happening recently in my life and then in other posts I will try and explain the past things. I have been told to try to blog to see if it helps and to maybe be able to reach out to others going through something similar. I think that how I write at first might be a bit all over, but as I get my thoughts together I will be able to sort them. So here goes what been going on recently.

I had a stroke this past October (2020). It was not a normal stroke that people think of. I woke up with a grey blob in my right eye. I went to bed with normaI vision and woke up with a blob. I ended up going to Wills Eye Hospitals ER in Philadelphia to be seen. After spending the day in the ER with different specialist looking at my case, it turned out that I had a Branch Retinal Artery Occlusion. This turns out to be a type of a stoke.
Well, this turned my life upside down, again!
It took me a few years to get my life, sort of, in order after I lost my vision (overnight also) in my left eye (I will explain that in another blog post sometime). I have spent the last few months with doctor appointments and tests and a procedure to have a heart loop monitor put in. I am emotional drained.
My vision in my left eye never came back (2012 it went due to, they think, NMOSD), so now with a blob in my right eye I was not able to drive. This was very hard to deal with. I am usually independent as much as I can be. I was not allowed to drive for 3 months. My right eye did improve to the point that I was cleared to drive. Yes, I still have some vision loss in that eye, but luckily it is not enough to stop me from driving. I did have to give up driving at night. I am still trying to get used to that. I find that I have days that are emotionally draining and sometimes hard for me with vertigo.
Today is a rough day for me. I am not really sure why today is a tough day, but I am on edge and emotional. I would think that I would be in a better mood as the stoke specialist, that I have been seeing, cleared me for normal activity and I don’t have to go back for a year unless something changes with me. So now I have been cleared by the cardiologist for normal activity and the stroke specialists, but no-one has an answer as to why I had a stroke. This seems to be the way that my life goes. I have a medical issue no-one has an answer to why and then life goes to a new normal. This can be very frustrating. It is a challenge to get used to the way i see the world now. Watching TV is hard for me, but hopefully I will be able to watch it again. I am able to watch things on my phone or a mini iPad, but nothing bigger or it makes me sick from the motion. I am going to have to stop at this point as even writing this is hard for me to do. I will be back soon.